| | Current Music: | Achy Breaky Heart (just d/led it on my phone) | | Subject: | loved and hated | | Time: | 02:05 pm | | Current Mood: | ![[mood icon]](http://l-stat.livejournal.com/img/mood/classic/smile.gif) content |
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| | Well I took this quiz thingy....and it told me my sex rating is 82% and that I'd orgasm 460 times....hmm I must have a wonderful sex life ahead of me .... hehe can't wait! .... that's not thing right now I am missing a tad bit.... lately I've been putting Dan in the past...but with him trying to stay in my life it's making everything odd....at times I miss him...I miss being held by him and his sweet kisses....but then I remember all those other times which make me want to hate him.... I just wish I knew how he felt and he'd tell someone the damn truth about it too.....he won't tell us the truth...he says he is over me....but what would possess someone to call the person all the time then?.... I don't know.... Well everything in my life right now is just peachy...I wanna plan a trip with my friends...but to where? lol... hmmmmmmmm | comments: 4 comments or Leave a comment   |
|  You Are F***-able!And boy do you ever take advantage of your do-ability. And why not? If you can score, why not go for it? And no matter how many steamy affairs you have... Well, you always seem to find more. And no wonder - you are hot from any perspective. Hot attitude, hot appearance, and hot passion equals tons of hot screwing! Are You F***able?More Great Quizzes from Quiz Diva | | comments: Leave a comment |
| | Current Music: | Slow Motion | | Subject: | Thinking | | Time: | 09:25 pm | | Current Mood: | ![[mood icon]](http://l-stat.livejournal.com/img/mood/classic/tired.gif) tired |
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| UGH! you're driving me crazy.... Daniel I love you!
I've been spending the recent days thinking about various things....the most important thing would have to be Daniel....
He's on my mind 24/7...anything and everything about him...I can't hate anything about him...I don't think it's possible.....
Tonight he brought his cousins computer up with him and a friend of our from Ubly....well...he ended up taking me out to TGIF Friday's which was okay.....well....I just wanted to be with him again....all that was on my mind the whole entire time was one guy...the most amazing guy out there Daniel....with having him sitting next to me drove me insane.....to the insanity that I just wanted to be held by him...held by him for the rest of my life....is that too hard to ask for?.... actually it is....just being in his arms makes me feel so safe... safer then anyone has ever made me feel....he's made me the happiest person alive....and just being able to hang out with him continues to make me the happiest person alive...to know that I am with such a wonderful handsome guy....even if it was only for the night.....
I know that many people might think that he's not even cute that I must be drunk to think he's wonderful and handsome and especially the best boyfriend ever...but in my eyes he is.....there is just something about him....I can't explain it....it's in my heart....the only person I'd be able to explain it too is Daniel...by showing what's in my heart...and what remains in my heart right now is unconditional love that shouldn't be taken for granted....I figure if he doesn't except the love from me...then he's probably making the biggest mistake of his life....because love is hard to come by and especially love from a person who's trusting and ready to actually make the plunge of settling down......
Him and I may have some crazy stories of being together and then some sad times....but the best times will always be taken over the sad ones....
A friend once wrote in my comment section "Mature love says I need you because I love you, and immature love says I love you because I need you" ~Erich Fromm
I actually had forget about this saying....but she told me to think about which one I was....and it dawned on me tonight because this saying came into my head....and the one that fits me is 'I need you because I love you'. That's the reason....I need Daniel because I love him.....
There's no game to be played....just some love to be made... naw...but truly there isn't a game to be played...it should all be the truth with no lies.... gotta get to bed working two jobs tomorrow...adios
I love you baby!!!!!! and I miss you (Daniel Eric S.) | | comments: Leave a comment |
| | Current Music: | Lonestart- Let Us be Us Again lol ya right! | | Subject: | A hard lesson learned | | Time: | 11:07 am | | Current Mood: | ![[mood icon]](http://l-stat.livejournal.com/img/mood/classic/energetic.gif) energetic |
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| I will always love you Daniel....
"Someone needs to open up their heart and let me come back in....let's be us again....oh let's be us again" - Lonestar
To have a relationship taken for granted....comes with the meaning that ones life isn't important enough and is also taken for granted.... during my recent relationship I learned that my significant other seemed to be taken the relationship and my love for him for granted.... with these being taken for granted it hurts a person... mentally and emotionally because for one not to except the gift of love and a relationship is taken ones own life for granted.....
When I first came into Daniel's life....it came to me that I was meant to change his life around and set him for the future and for the whole life experience of settling down....None of what I had hope to happen took place....he remained the same person...Not even the slightest did he try....it shows what meant more to him in the relationship and that was his alcohol, drugs and cigs.... If you put all those together and asked a decent fellow what he would choose a lifetime of love or a lifetime of stupidity... he'd have to say a lifetime of love....finding someone even to date in these days is a hard thing..yet alone finding someone to spend love unconditionally with...I gave my heart and my unconditional love when I shouldn't have at all ... when I should have said Goodbye forever....but as it usually happens it comes back and hits you in the back of the head.....and before you know it...he's the one breaking up with you and making you look like the jackass in the relationship...what can you do though....just keep your distance....
Not sure if I'll ever love again....someday I am hoping to find someone decent enough who knows how to treat someone and who is ready to settle down... I know I am only 19, but I am actually ready to make that move and to settle down.... there's no reason for me to want to stay single...first off... I don't need to go out partying constantly to have a good time, second thing... I don't need to slut around to have a good time... third thing...I am ready to give my heart away to the man who deserves it....
It's sad but true....SINGLE AGAIN!.... this time.... I truly dated an interesting fellow! ..... it's very amusing how he decides to come back to me ever other day almost and then break up with me again....he may think he's full of mind games...but he's not the one realizing I take this whole break-up as a big joke now!...the reason it's a joke because I don't know what to believe.... the only thing I believe is that he's not over me yet..... if you'd like to hear the story of my life with this farm boy....drop me a line and maybe i'll post my 'Lifetime' channel story.... Now I must leave before I have reporters after me....to make a dramatic movie of my life.... haha!.... it's sad..... I love ya'll and especially you baby(Daniel).
Too many hicks out there in this world...I love those hot male hicks out there.... but one of those hicks ain't loving me....
Life is full of excitement! Everyday has been an adventure in my life for the last two months....for I didn't know what to expect....and even now I just have to laugh and wonder what will come up next....hoping he'll realize that he misses me and those two months bloom into a lifetime.... | | comments: 1 comment or Leave a comment |
| | Current Music: | slow motion | | Subject: | hmm | | Time: | 12:30 pm | | Current Mood: | ![[mood icon]](http://l-stat.livejournal.com/img/mood/classic/confused.gif) curious |
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| | I really don't know what to think of anything anymore...I've come to the decision that I never want to lose Daniel.... there's something about the kid that makes him unresistible....I can't explain why I can't live without him there's just something though....he makes me the happiest person a live....when I am not with him I long until the day that we'll be living together(hopefully in a month or so).....if we move in together that'd be the best thing ever brought to my life....there is not one day that I can go without even hearing his voice...it's sad but true...I am deeply in love....what can a girl do....when her b/f is a hottie, has a nice body....and what means the most of anything to me is that he's perfect to me...I love everything about him....his personality is what attracted me to him the most...he's very funny and very outgoing kind of like me....but yet our personalities clash all time...nothing I can do about that, but try to act like a better g/f....that's the best thing I could do.... | | comments: 4 comments or Leave a comment |
| | Subject: | Last night | | Time: | 09:18 am | | Current Mood: | ![[mood icon]](http://l-stat.livejournal.com/img/mood/classic/wink.gif) weird |
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| | Last night was kind of strange....Dan told me he'd be coming up to visit since he wasn't able to come up tonight for our anniversary...he ended up calling me and told me he was with his friend Don....but when they pulled in the drive way... his cousin was also with him...they had taken the TransAm out for a spin....well they all come in the house and then Dan goes follow us out there...me being a girl thought that was ridiculous so I put on a scene and got my way....we ended up going to his apt in Saginaw and ended up cleaning it...let's just say I was kind of furious on why he even had to bring those two guys up....but it was an easy way for him to have to go home instead of staying...but still those guys just sat around eating candy and drinking...while mind you Dan and I were cleaning......Dan and I had a talk....and he's very very jealous about the whole club thing and me dancing with other guys...so it looks like I'll just be out there dancing staying away from other guys just for him.....isn't that going to be a fun night.... | | comments: Leave a comment |
| | Current Music: | slow motion | | Subject: | hmm | | Time: | 11:16 am | | Current Mood: | bouncy |
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| sorry you can post a new comment only every 10 secs slow down cowboy! lol that's hilarious!
Well I found out I have a huge weakness in the relationship and that is trusting Dan all the time...I mean I want to trust him fully, but he doesn't have the greatest past...and well last night he took our friend Alicia out to dinner at the bar in Bad Axe well....being a girlfriend I got all mad and over protective...and well...he promised he only wants to be with me...blah blah blah.... fun stuff... and now I miss him soooo much I want to be held by him for the the rest of my life....
I know it was pathetic to not trust him....I love him soooo much though! | | comments: Leave a comment |
| | Subject: | Gmail | | Time: | 04:01 pm | | Current Mood: | ![[mood icon]](http://l-stat.livejournal.com/img/mood/classic/shock.gif) distressed |
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| Well I recently received six free gmail invites....it's a new email account through 'Google' and well...if you'd like and invite or if you'd like to find out more about it...go to gmail.google.com...
gmail invites are gone! | | comments: Leave a comment |
| | Subject: | Bored | | Time: | 01:35 pm | | Current Mood: | ![[mood icon]](http://l-stat.livejournal.com/img/mood/classic/sad.gif) bored |
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| Well I don't know what to say really, except that I am still with the old man...for some reason as much as I want to get rid of him sometimes....there's something that won't allow me to....
Work is extremely boring today...I am going to go nuts sitting here...I have only have a few more mins of sanity left I think....blah! | | comments: Leave a comment |
| | Current Music: | Forever and Ever, Amen | | Subject: | hehe | | Time: | 01:42 pm | | Current Mood: | happy |
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| Lately I've seen my boyfriend more then ever.....it's great to see him all the time....the last two weeks we'll have seen each other everyday...gosh it's great....we haven't fought in a long time...everything is perfect...I could not ask for more right now....actually if I could ask for anything right now...it'd be being at home relaxing with my baby....he's suppose to be coming up tonight, but I am positively not sure what's going on for the fact that he has a lot of work to do today....I think I've finally gotten his parents to hate me...it's a long crazy story only certain people know....all I know though is that this is the kid that makes me happy and that I want to make happy for a very very long time....he's been thinking of buying a house even before we met he was thinking of it...but now it's like if he buys it it'll be 'our' house....strange to think of...I don't want to rush into anything, but it just feels great to have someone special in your life....I haven't felt love in over a year and a half and then Daniel just came a long....we both were crushing on each other before we officially met...we just met each other abruptly and talked on the phone...as soon as we met it was like wow.....one day when him and I attend church he grabbed my hand to hold it and when we put our hands together I got this funny feeling throughout my body....I am not sure if God was telling us we're not meant to be or that we are meant to be.....only time will tell.....but I must end this talk....work is calling my name...blah!!!!!!!
BLAH BLAH BLAH!!!
I am fearing this weekend will be a drag, even though Sunday is Father's Day.
Also I never ended up quiting Younkers just yet for the fact that I need money....I sooo want to quit there....they give you shitty hours and the manager's aren't that friendly...so now it's basically deciding what to do..... | | comments: Leave a comment |
| | Current Music: | umm..anything basically | | Subject: | YAYY!!! | | Time: | 11:25 am | | Current Mood: | cheerful |
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| I am heading out to Ubly tonight....spending the night again with the most wonderful guy in the whole world....as of right now...I never ever want to break up.....
This is the cutest and funniest thing I've heard lately
Me: Nick you're really bright today
Nick: I know my mom always tells me that I'm bright
Mo: Points at his orange neon shirt
Nick: Oh you meant my shirt
Me: Couldn't control laughter
It's very entertaining when you work with a bunch of crazy guys lol | | comments: Leave a comment |
| | Current Music: | love songs | | Subject: | Lalala | | Time: | 03:34 pm | | Current Mood: | tired |
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| Today work was a drag....I actually dozed off for a second accidentally.....lately Dan and I have been getting a long GREAT.... the only bad thing is that I miss him and everything about him....I've been thinking of driving up there tonight to watch the Piston's with him.....that will be me driving up to Ubly three times this week though...hmmm.....decisions, decisions, decisions.....can't wait to see him though......
Oh yea Younker's will probably be getting their two week notice tomorrow for the factor is that they think i am going to work a total of 70 hrs(between two jobs) .... I absolutely think their nuts!!!!....they scheduled me to work the WHOLE weekend of the St. Stans picnic and they told me that on Sunday the 27th it's a mandatory work day and that I couldn't possibly make it to my sisters grad party because stupid inventory is more important...I DON'T THINK SO!!....THEY CAN SCREW OFF!!!!!! | | comments: 1 comment or Leave a comment |
| | Subject: | blah | | Time: | 03:25 pm | | Current Mood: | ![[mood icon]](http://l-stat.livejournal.com/img/mood/classic/angry.gif) cranky |
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| | I am ready to go home...but I still have an hour left of work...then it's home to do homework and then hit the sheets....I am seriously tired...today has been a useless day....nothing to really do at all...and to top that off hotmail isn't working here soo great!.... blah! | | comments: Leave a comment |
| | That's how I have been feeling lately....I can't stop thinking about Dan.....I thought this past weekend was going to turn out crappy....Friday night he didn't end up showing up to my house until midnight....then in the morning he got up as usual for work....but when I had called him about the wedding he continued in telling me that he didnt' end up going to work...so he stopped by and picked me up and off we were to Ubly....well we didn't end up making the wedding at the church because he ended up having a rod in his engine of the car knocking(note this was a family car that they just drove to beat up)..... when we got to Ubly he ended up having to go help his cousin with something so he dropped me off to his sisters and I was bored and chose to watch "How to lose a guy in 10 days" what a great movie I love it....after that we ended up going to his cousins graduation party and I happened to get pissed at him....so we had a huge talk ... which resulted in him wanting to stay together again....after his cousins we ventured to the wedding reception...well since they were already eating there we decided to hit up a restaurant in Bad Axe called 'Cousins' the food was decent...... at the reception everything was fine....he acted like the best boyfriend in the world...he even slow danced with me....well later on, on our way to Minden City to meet one of our friends at a bar...we had been talking we got on the subject of kids and stuff....well he said something like 'just let me raise the boys' and I was like oh man that's kind of scary lol....scary in two ways ... letting him raise them lol and then kids....I am not ready to have kids....maybe if I were to be married and have a degree I'd be ready....Sunday morning we woke up early and made it back to home thinking that church was for 11:30, but found out it was for 10:30.....so missed out on church....but Dan and I then went shopping and bought his dad a father's day gift....and also I got him a few things and bought a bunch of stuff at 'Bath and Body Works' sale.....and also he was a sweetheart and bought my sister two movies.....he also took me for a late lunch to Bennigen's ... we get a long perfectly together...I mean if we didn't get sooo jealous our relationship would be perfect....I love everything about him(except when he drinks a lot and smoking, but for the time being I am going to let him keep smoking)....there's not one thing that I could get rid of him for right now.....I don't know what attracts me to him....I think it's just his love....and the cute things he says....and for some reason I love his tatoos....he's my baby.....well.....last night he was going to drive home around 9:30 and I told him I would rather have him stay here and drive home early in the morning, because he was already falling asleep....so he decided he'd stay the night...my parents really don't care anymore because they like him.....he stayed until he had to leave...he probably left around 5:30...which was nice spending Friday night, all day Sat and Sunday with him....it just makes me feel great and loved I've truly never even felt this way about any guy before.....it's crazy....I can see myself never breaking up with him...hopefully it lasts that way....I will always love Dan! | | comments: Leave a comment |
| | Current Music: | We danced- Brad Paisley | | Subject: | interesting | | Time: | 09:58 am | | Current Mood: | satisfied |
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| | How to make a tornangel_9 |
Ingredients:
1 part intelligence
1 part humour
5 parts ego |
Method:
Stir together in a glass tumbler with a salted rim. Serve with a slice of curiosity and a pinch of salt. Yum! |
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| | Current Music: | umm polkas | | Subject: | Blah | | Time: | 10:28 am | | Current Mood: | ![[mood icon]](http://l-stat.livejournal.com/img/mood/classic/sick.gif) sick |
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| That's how I feel as of right now....blah!....I figured out what I might be allergic to....and that is hay....damn that hay....so now I get to go to the doctor to see what's up with me getting this sick cuz of allergies...this happened to me the same time last year.....I went to Kansas came back sick as a dog...and now...going out to the country again I am starting to get the same type of thing...it has to be hay or something...
Oh yea Mo is a mean mean mean boy! | | comments: Leave a comment |
| | Well last night I decided to drive to Ubly to surprise my boyfriend....in which I did....I first met at my friend Alica's house to use her phone since mine doesn't have any reception out in the thumb....well....when he called back he didn't know who I was at first until then he figured it out and then told me to come out to his uncles.....didn't really do much out there until him and I had a serious talk....this talk ended in him telling me he wanted to stay in the relationship fine and dandy....he let me take his phone with him....and told me he'd be over to Alicia's a lil' after 12 well that rolled by and so did 1 so what did I do....I called him and he said he was going to be working on till like 2:30 I got all mad and told him he could pick his phone up in Bay City and he decided he'd drive out to Alicia's.... when he arrived at Alicia's we had a long talk....I basically wanted to break up with him...but for some reason don't have it in my heart.....I told him everything that I felt about him and felt was wrong about the relationship....I told him stories about why he shouldn't drink, work a lot and smoke a lot....I care about him too much to ever lose him....he's all I think about and dream about....he told me as of last night he never wanted to fight again....which I hope is true.....because with me doing all my thinking lately....he seems to be the best thing in my life right now....he makes me happy and he's just soooo darn handsome in my eyes.....I mean everytime I hang out with him...I fall deeper in love....I love him more than I even loved Eddie..... I think that Daniel is a good catch a good catch that I never want to put back into the sea of fish..... I LOVE YOU Daniel! ...I don't know what life would be like being apart from him forever....I don't think I could personally handle it.. | | comments: Leave a comment |
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